I’d like to share my coming to faith testimony with you.

I wasn’t given the gospel by an evangelical Christian, I didn’t have an alter call, I didn’t know any Christians, I most certainly wasn’t seeking God but somehow he found me, strangely, via the internet and in my darkest hour. I’ve had a somewhat protracted and drawn out Christian birth and it’s hard to pinpoint when I became a true believer and follower. My full understanding came over a period of many months and a series of revelations culminating in an epiphany moment which I’ll get to.

Early on in my quest for truth I came to the realisation there is a cosmic chess match, a campaign against God, against Christ, against God’s believers (the Jews and the Christians and none of the false religions), a war for our souls.  Christianity media smear campaigns and pop culture entertainment mocking the cross and Christ, a gospel that is offensive to mankind. It was a short while later that I fully understood the gospel and came to repentance. So you could say it was a breach birth. It wasn’t an acknowledgement of being a sinner, repentance, followed by faith but the opposite.

For a long time that bothered me that my conversion wasn’t genuine, that I had the head knowledge but God was far from my heart…missing the godly sorrow and contrite heart. But, what God did was take me on an epic roller coaster ride which catapulted me into a true spiritual awakening, to see the real condition of the world, my own heart and the elite’s agenda. He showed me how Satan has deceived the whole world leading us astray and from the truth in our divine birth right. Thus my ties to this material world dimmed.

My perceptions and affections are on things above, not on things of this world. My passions and desires gradually changed and turned towards God and seeking His truth. I saw how, by design, popular culture, TV and the entertainment industry (run by the Illuminati) is aimed to mind control and indoctrinate the masses, destroying all morals in society. But I now have a biblical worldview and a blessed hope, Jesus. A new pair of spiritual eyes to truly see!

I’m following Jesus, the God-man who died for me. I’ll explain some of the many startling observations, connections and pivotal moments on my coming to faith journey and how close I came to the new age deception, a broad movement characterised by alternative approaches to traditional Western culture, with an interest in spirituality, eastern mysticism, holism, developed in western nations during the 1960s – love, peace, self-worship, unity, our higher self, ascension, enlightenment to God hood – no new trick in Satan’s kingdom!

It  was during my quest for the truth that in amongst the confusion, disinformation, false teachings, false spirituality that some online Christian testimonies and, articles quoting scriptures from the Bible, the infallible word of God, which came to light in amongst the darkness that saved me from massive, planned, deception.

How did this all come about?

The root of my problems began with what is probably our most prevalent trait; fear. I was looking for healing in my life. I’d long suffered with distorted thinking patterns, insecurity, anxiety and fear of failure, a self-fulfilling prophecy. These governing childhood traits were further exacerbated by heavy recreational drink and drug abuse since my teens that had disastrous effects on my esteem, career, relationships and short-lived marriage. I was highly strung out and could, at time, have outbursts of rage, mainly directed at myself and this burning frustration within me.

Fear is the path to the dark side. Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering. I was unhinged and hateful. I’d had it all according to ‘the world’; the house, the marriage a good job as an interior designer but I was miserable in a world full of injustice, hardness and futility; I had a God shaped hole in my heart and didn’t know it. Now I understand the damage of sin and how it separates us not only from a Holy God but each other.

I can see that without the headship of Christ in our marriage we didn’t stand a good chance in a throw-away society. I ended up living back at my Mother’s, in an emotional melt-down, further impacting my self-loathing, rejected by a string of failed relationships, I continued to self-medicate with drugs, alcohol, male attention and partying shortly followed by memory blackouts, regret, shame and misery; a repetitive cycle of self-pity. I couldn’t fix myself.

Once again I turned to the self-help industry which naturally led on to dipping my toes into holistic therapies, yet little did I know I was diving head first into spiritual deception; the occult and witchcraft! I didn’t have any strong beliefs about the afterlife and certainly not hell, because I’d been indoctrinated by the paranormal reality shows. So thinking little of it, an Irish, non-practising catholic friend, obsessively into clairvoyance and tarot cards invited me to a yearly conference held in London called ‘Mind, Body & Spirit’ where a host of therapies and workshops are on offer.

So I went along and partook in a workshop called ‘Transforming Shadows’ by Jamie Catto. I later came to the realisation (having seen his Facebook updates and joining the dots) that he is part of the Illuminati and one of the founders of popular 90’s Electronic Dance Music group called ‘Faithless’ with hit song ‘God is a DJ’ (which is promoting idolatry).

Not long after I came into contact with an old friend who had been a recreational drug user who seemed to have turned her life around, no longer drank and was into self-love and acceptance. She dressed differently, had a mentor and was talking about shamanism and ayahuasca. I attended one of her “raw cacao chocolate dance ceremonies” held in a hall in London with other New Agers all wearing harem pants and feathers talking about air, fire and water.

I was thinking how am I going to prance around for two hours without the uninhibitor alcohol? I got through it but was not for me! Later, while out for a bite to eat with a small group, they spoke of new agey practices, astrology charts, sacred geometry and jargon quite alien to me and I certainly didn’t feel like one of “the tribe”. Some mentioned picking up unwanted negative entities and UFO visitations but nothing really twigged at this point. Now I know they were opening demonic doorways through occult “new age” practices.

So, although I wasn’t looking into new age theosophy as such, and very much an outsider looking in, I guess I wanted what she had which was peace and joy. At their advice I went on to download meditation and mindfulness apps on my phone, which led to going on YouTube seeking transcendental guided meditations.

For me, YouTube, up until that point was purely for cute animal videos and cookery videos. You don’t want to be on the “wrong” side of YouTube because what happened to me next was the biggest shock or rude awakening of my life and as I later realised, a sitting duck for all kinds of deception. Truth mixed with error.

I was off work at this point in time and therefore spent six solid weeks “going down the rabbit hole’” (like Alice in Wonderland) putting in 18 hour days, staying up all night in cold sweats, trying to rebuild my paradigm. I’d entered the realm of conspiracy or the truth movement.

I researched the illuminati, false flag events like 911, ufos, alien abductions, chemtrails, ley lines, the ancient world, ziggurats, pyramids, nephillim, the occult, propaganda, Monsanto, Bilderberg’s, the federal reserve bank, The Rothschilds, Bohemia Grove, pharmaceuticals industry, vaccines, secret societies, fluoridation, operation paperclick, agenda 21, project bluebeam you name it, I researched it.

They are all interrelated. Much to my amasement, outside of Hollywood and the Da Vinci Code there really are angels and demons and the illuminati do exist!  That evolution is a lie, there is no missing link, the ones they’ve claimed are frauds. I barely left the house during those six weeks because once you uncover some truths you are trying to build a picture, a jigsaw, connect the dots, make sense of reality, sifting out the truths from the half-truths, from the lies. But how do you do that without the word of God? It’s not possible.

I didn’t know that at the time so I was also tuning in to David Icke (a channeller of “spirit guides”), so it was jumbled up and a lot of confusion. I desperately wanted the truth, nothing but the truth and I made it my quest to find it with all my heart, mind and strength which as you can imagine had deteriorated due to the trauma of extremely disturbing revelations and the fact that no-body believed me so I withdrew from people.

Amongst all the fringe conspiracies what was truly alarming was investigating the Illuminati brotherhood and their diabolical schemes to cull and enslave mankind, a global conspiracy which in its breadth, depth and scope is like no other…of epic proportions. The New World Order. The emergence of a totalitarian one world government, one world religion and one world currency. A dictatorship that will be far worse than any the world has ever seen and which I later learnt was prophesied and recorded in the book of Daniel as the fifth and final kingdom or empire.

I was flabbergasted; the evil plans of the elite are in the Bible??!!  My world view was completely turned upside down. I was unfit for work, everything I thought I knew about the world was a lie and I’d been lied to my entire life. I was also grieving what the devil had snatched away as I had once believed in God as a very young girl who attended church.  I wanted clarity on the matter and healing.

I could see the discrepancies in the truth movement and came to realise the elites have a disinfo. campaign, psychological operations (aka psy ops) and “shills” also known as controlled opposition. So it was like wading through treacle, a salmon swimming against the current but on I pressed, determined, like a dog with a bone I would not let go.

If you’re coming to faith on the wrong side of YouTube you won’t find the Bob Mitchells or the Dave Hunts, you’ll come across half-baked truths and Christian cults and that’s where the deadly poison awaits. I was not reading the bible and so was being deceived by those saying if you don’t speak in tongues you’re not saved so had all this to contend with. A real mess.

In parallel I was researching Ayahuasca, the “sacred spirit vine” for healing. I was so sad, so hopeless…living in defeat, carnal about what humanity was facing that I begged my very reluctant mother to lend me the money to go to a shamanic healing centre in the Amazon, Peru. I was THAT desperate. I’d recalled the conversations with New Agers about it and my own run-in with intrepid explorer and TV personality, Bruce Parry whom I’d met in Ibiza and spent a decadent afternoon getting high with some years prior.

I’d been a follower of his series called “Tribe” and “Amazon” where he goes native with indigenous tribes and their customs and rituals and that included an ayahuasca trip, well documented on the BBC. So I researched him and lo and behold he continues to regularly see shamans and goes back yearly – his interviews are on YouTube. I was desperate and felt stuck, frozen by fear.

I wanted answers, enlightenment, putting all my hope in to this so called miraculous healing! Opening the third eye to other dimensions, the spirit world. (Which I now know is spirit invocation). I read and watched testimony after testimony which promised a both very personal spiritual experience and a oneness with creation and a feeling of divine love and acceptance imparted from the creator, or “Christ consciousness”, healing of past hurts, hang-ups and emotional traumas but also an outer body experience, shared visions and laughter (what I now know is the kundalini spirit/Hinduism/Torronto blessing in its different guises).

Its promises and experiences of healing were so seductive I spent every spare moment researching it – “DMT the spirit molecule” documentary is well known. Many testimonies talked about coming face to face with demons however Shamans say there are there to ward off the bad spirits and give access only to the good. Many people have been cured from cancer and depression so trusted this was a good thing. What I later learned was that many illnesses are caused by demons and it’s simply the demons relinquishing their hold on that person so as to appear healed, that they operate on multiple levels of deception!

So, I was mentally prepared to travel alone to the Amazon jungle despite the risks of travelling as a lone female, the risk of a bad hallucinogenic trip and the certain undignified violent vomiting in a group setting but I thought, what the heck I’m a veteran drug user, I’d cope. Testimonies said, the worse the experience, the better the payoff! There is only one crucial requirement for this, that you must be brave. I’d booked it two months in advance as I was back at work at this point and so my evening research for the truth continued during this countdown.

It was a mere few weeks after booking flights that I started researching ‘should Christians take ayahuasca’ because I did believe in Christ but knew nothing of the gospel as I hadn’t started reading the Bible or met any Christians but was well aware of The Luciferian agenda to believe but hadn’t yet the saving faith.  Many revelations came to light about ayahuasca, for example a one page blog entitled ‘ayahuasca my trip into hell’ and elsewhere, scriptures of how Satan can pose as an angel of light. He is the master counterfeiter and father of lies.

Patterns emerged in testimonies and ayahuasca artwork that spoke of and depicted an encounter with a serpent dawned on me; the beguiling serpent…wow!!!! It was in the early hours of the morning I got a childhood Bible, clutched it to my chest and for the first time cried out loud to God, “I believe, I’ve been tricked, I follow you now, I won’t do it” (so the demons that had been tormenting me could hear) and repented of it.

‘Now war arose in heaven, Michael and his angels fighting against the dragon. And the dragon and his angels fought back, but he was defeated, and there was no longer any place for them in heaven. And the great dragon was thrown down, that ancient serpent, who is called the devil and Satan, the deceiver of the whole world – he was thrown down to the earth, and his angels were thrown down with him’. Rev 12:7-9 (End times)

I was also researching what scientists label “sleep paralysis” which I’d encountered since childhood and later, especially during my deep research into understanding the occult and UFO and alien abductions. Some nights it was relentless, going on all night, causing great fear and distress as I would get a “felt presence” immediately before it would happen, waking me out of my dream state. Then the paralysis and electrical type buzzing/frequency which felt like it was trying to pull my spirit out of my body…a battle of wills. Other times, I had a demon sit on the edge of my bed which caused my body to roll in towards it. Twice I heard my name (voice to skull) being called during the daytime, on separate occasions, like a whisper, ‘Kaaaatie’.

The phenomenon of sleep paralysis can be recognised in reports across different cultures and throughout history. Perhaps the most famous historic example of sleep paralysis in art is Henry Fuseli’s 1781 painting ‘The Nightmare’. This painting features many of the classic symptoms of sleep paralysis. The central figure is portrayed lying on her back with a demon sitting on her chest, and strange looking creatures in the background. Many consider it Fuseli’s greatest work and it is believed to be one of the first artistic impressions of sleep paralysis.

After watching countless testimonies on YouTube all with startling similarities to my own and unconvinced by the new religion called science for its explanation, I came across an excellent Christian ministry www.stopsleepparalysis.org – what it is and how to stop it.

Sleep paralysis is known by many names across the world including “Old Hag Syndrome” in the west. Some claims it is caused by “Shadow People,” “Hat Man,” or various evil spiritual beings like demons. Some, but not all cases of “alien abductions” or incubus and succubus attacks (spiritual rape) can be chalked up to a severe sleep paralysis episode. In Chris White’s book, non-profit websites and videos, he explains know how to do something that most sleep scientists say is impossible: to stop sleep paralysis for good.

Calling on the name of Jesus in my mind, while paralysed, stopped the attacks!!

With all this in mind, I therefore resigned myself to a trip to Peru (not a hallucinogenic one) and treat it as a break away in God’s creation, not the spiritual enlightenment I had initially hoped for. Crushed I’d invested money going to a place steeped in witchcraft, all I knew at this point was that I must get to Israel and Jerusalem and find out all there is to know about Christ. So I planned it that 24hrs after landing back at Heathrow I’d be in Israel on a Christian tour group of the holy land (August 2014).

However, in the Amazon I tried to witness to the ayahuasca pilgrims including deceived self-professing Christians. A few New Agers threw up the crossed fingers sign to me for my unwanted warnings. The irony wasn’t lost on me.

Later on, having flown to Lima for the second part of my trip to Machu Picchu with an overnight stay in the capital, I was in a cab from the airport to my hotel with a huge niggling regret at still having not found peace or insights with the ayahuasca experience having travelled across the globe for healing and the opportunity had passed (even though I knew it was a deception).

Feeling sad and lonely at my plight, an old eighties song was playing, “All by myself” by Carmen to add insult to injury and as the cab left the highway onto the snaking coastal road, the song coming to a climax and inner emotions charged, it was then I spotted a huge brightly lit cross across the bay and God whispered, “You’re not alone, I will never leave you or forsake you”.

It was a poigniant moment, a turning point of sorts; closure. The temptation had been so great to take ayahusaca but God delivered me in the nick of time from deceiving spirits and inviting demonic oppression, possibly far worse than sleep paralysis. I’d been putting all my hope of healing in a witch doctor, a “medicine man”, but now I knew my hope and healing was and must be in Jesus.

To quote scripture:

‘Sanctify them in the truth; Your word is truth’. John 17:17 ‘So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous hand. Isaiah 41:10

When I arrived at Machu Picchu after a wonderful time camping and trekking in God’s creation star gazing at the Milky Way, it felt inappropriate to be sat at a UNESCO tourist attraction, a place of sun god worship and the underworld so I found a remote place to connect with God. There were some pagans trying to absorb some ancient energy but I knew they were deceived and I spoke to God in my spirit,“I’m beginning to understand, thank you, from the bottom of my once Godless heart….no turning back”.So the realisation that the elite of the world have had their own religion for quite some time, that in the occult world, “the mysteries”, traced back to Babylon in Sumeria truly blew my mind (and shook me to near mental collapse).

The modern doctrine is luciferian, in plain terms it is “satanic.” What was more astonishing is that the un-initiated mass public have been unwittingly enslaved to them and their religion on a massive scale. The elite own virtually everything and they have literally programmed us to their liking.

They instigate wars and start revolutions in the “name of God” and have us fight and die for them. They even fund both sides of wars and rewrite history. They have owned corporations, ad-campaigns and our education curriculum. They have brainwashed the masses into thinking that we’re all basically big-brained monkeys.

I have listened to their music, read their books and have watched their television and movies since I was born. They had brainwashed me so superbly that I used to mock conspiracy theorists and Christians. For me to now be a Christian is a miracle in itself. Although what I went through discovering the New World Order was extremely painful process I now cling to the cross of Jesus for dear life and it has made this war for my soul VERY real. It’s more real than the fake society Satan has carved out.

The illuminati have done such an excellent job of reverse psychology that if you even mention the word “consipracy” or “illuminati” (through media and entertainment) that people are programmed to have an immediate mocking response. People or rather “sheeple” as known in the truth movement are so plugged into the system that they will die to save and protect it and ultimately take the “mark of the beast” rather than accept Jesus’ free gift of salvation.

For me, the scales have fallen off my eyes and I’m being sanctified, reconciled back to the father God, through Christ. I can now detect symbolism, agendas in the media and have the word of God so I won’t be so easily deceived again and I’m marvelling at His creation! I am living in an unparalleled history, HIS story and can see prophecy being fulfilled before my eyes.

Whereas before I was frozen in fear of the New World Order (whose no. 1 targets are Jews and Christians before they turn on the NWO defectors) but now I am  essentially “free” and “born of the spirit”, trusting in Jesus and His promises to those who love Him and REPENT of their sins. I’ve not had a more sound mind since I can recall, he is a healer! Whereby I can cry out “Abba, Father” and I know he’s there. My rock, my comforter, my creator!

For God has not given us “the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind” 2 Timothy 1:7. “All Scripture is inspired by God and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, for training in righteousness’” 2 Timothy 3:16

Where I once bucked, reared and revolted from my master (the Lord of Lords and King of Kings) I now draw near to him, to trust and obey, learning to surrender my will in obedience to Him.

I hope I can be so bold as to call myself a watchman on the wall, sounding the alarm and pointing towards Jesus.

For “He is the way, the truth and the life, no-one comes to the Father except through Him” John 14:6.

Our creator of the universe came in the flesh, he who knew no sin, to become sin for the world that whosoever shall believe on him shall not perish but have everlasting life. However even the demons believe and tremble..no we must worship Him in spirit and in truth.

Salvation is not found in ANY religion; but rather, in a Person – The Lord Jesus Christ. No amount of good works can take a person to Heaven.

We need Christ’s righteousness (Romans 4:5-6), because we have no self-righteousness to offer God (Isaiah 64:6). Only through the precious blood of Jesus Christ can a person have their sins forgiven, and be saved eternally. Salvation is freely given (Romans 5:15), freely offered (Romans 10:13), and freely received (Revelation 22:17).

Salvation is receiving, not giving. Eternal life is the gift of God (Romans 6:23).The Word of God clearly states in Romans 4:5 …“But to him that worketh not, but believeth on him that justifieth the ungodly, his faith is counted for righteousness.”The Biblical Gospel excludes ALL self-righteousness!

Heaven is not sitting in some cloud playing a harp, as the picture that man paints where boredom sets in but a great city fashioned by God, not man. We are promised when Jesus comes back (this time in judgement and as King, not the suffering servant) to be transformed to be like his glorious resurrected body.

He promises to wipe away every tear, all pain and mourning will be gone for ever in the glorious new universe. Every weakness, infirmity and deformity will be removed. All uncleaness and unrighteousness will be removed. For this current time we are pilgrims, this world is passing away, we have no lasting city here, we are seeking a city which is to come. Halleluijah.

While people are busy making plans for their future not knowing we are at the very end of this age, my priorities are remaining faithful to my redeemer. Getting built up in the Holy faith, putting on “the armour of God” (Ephesians 6) and planning for spiritual warfare, persecution and possible martyrdom. Getting to know HIM. To be “wise as a serpent and gentle as a dove’” (Matthew 10:16) Full of oil in my lamp as I wait for the soon return of Christ. My fear of self has been replaced by a fear of God…for “the fear of God is the beginning of wisdom”- Proverbs 9:10.

A scripture that I hold dear and marvel at is:

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